Help me to FLY

Dearest Allah Taa'la
SUBHANALLAH
what a BEAUTIFUL DAY
What more could I ask for than this?

I'm surrounded by the sounds of Your incredible creations.
above me, blossoms are hanging in curtains SUBHANALLAH

The soft cool breeze caresses my cheeks.
ALHAMDULILAH

but Allah Taa'la
despite all the beauty surrounding me
There is unrest in my heart.
I am not at peace inside.
I am saying this because, I just can't seem to accept my Dad.
I've tried so hard to just ignore the wrong I see in him.
I've tried SO hard not to judge him
I've tried extremely hard to just forgive him and let go of the hurt I've felt and stop feeling this venomous anger inside of me

But no matter how hard I try, the negative emotions just keep resurfacing
No matter How deep I bury them, they're always back from the dead, ready to torture me...
ready to seize my peace

Allah Taa'la
I need You to help me get out of these negative emotions,
I just want to bury that hatchet with dad once and for all.
I want to forgive him in my heart.

I need to be free.

So unchain me Allah Taa'la
Remove these shackles around my heart.

Help me to fly.