These past two weeks have made me a brand new person. The people I have been with in this time have contributed to my emotional growth a lot.
I don't really know how to explain my internal growth. I don't have the words to tell you how I have changed exactly.
Maybe I could put it simply by saying that I am more 'me' now, than I have been in a long time.
I feel less insecure. I feel comfortable in my own skin. I suppose I feel this way because the fore mentioned people made me feel confident in myself. They made me feel like the real me is appreciated, you know?
I felt like I had no reason to hold back my feelings. I felt like there was no reason to restrain from doing what I want to do because I'm not doing anything wrong.
Being with them made me feel Loved. As they say, Love is the greatest healer. and That is what has happened. My heart has been healed by Love, affection.
I owe it All to Allah. He brought me loving people right when I needed them the most.
Now, these people have a Permanent place in my heart. They will Always mean the world to me. & I just think its so funny how we were practically strangers before they came to visit. Yet in this brief period of time, they have become family. More than family, they feel like an extension of myself. I say this because, I connect with them so well its like our souls are one.
Seriously, I'm not even kidding. You know sometimes you meet people who you feel like you've known your entire life? That's what I feel when I'm with them. They're the kind of people I don't have to be self-conscious around. I don't have to rehearse lines in my head to say to them. I don't have to carefully plan out a certain 'behavior' to adopt in front of them. & not even for a single second do I have to worry about offending them in any way. I can Literally Breathe with ease when I'm with them. My mind is so relaxed and carefree when I'm with them.
It is INSANELY Amazing to have known them intimately like I've been blessed to do.
Allah Taa'la, You can expect a gazillion words of Gratitude to You for blessing me with a companionship with the Saeed's. I will be FOREVER GRATEFUL TO YOU.
and even if you strip me of EVERYTHING I have right now, I will STILL be grateful to You for bringing the Saeeds into my life. Because I have learned over the course of my short life, that a Loving family is really all one needs.
THANKYOU ALLAH TAA'LA.
