REMIND ME TO SAY THANKYOU & I LOVE YOU

BISMILLAH ARRAHMAN ARRAHEEEEM!!!!
DEAREST MOST LOOOVING ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKYOU
THANKYOU
THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU

I Literally just don't know what else to say about the amazing day I've had today !!!
ALHAMDULILLAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
Where do I even start from?
Where do I even BEGIN to express my gratitude to YOU??????????????????????!!!!!!!!
You make me a better person everyday Allah Taa'la ! :')
You help me to improve my character every second!
every moment is an opportunity from You to LEARN, UNDERSTAND AND LIVE LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO !
ALHAMDULLILLAH TIMES INFINITY!
I'm just SO SPEECHLESS about the amazing people I have met today!
so utterly SPEECHLESS about what I have learned from them!
so SPEECHLESS about how connected I've felt with these people!
SO COMPLETELY SPEECHLESS about the unbreakable bond I have felt I have with these people!!!!!
SUBHANALLAH! SUBHANALLAH! SUBHANALLAH!
ALLLLAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHU AKBAR!!!!!!!!!

I just want to tell You that I Love YOU SO MUCH for LOVING ME!!!!!!!!
FOR CARING ABOUT ME SOOOO MUCH!!!!
FOR BLESSING ME WITH THESE GOLDEN OPPORTUNITIES!
I THANKYOU! FOR EVERY SECOND OF ALL THE DAYS IN MY LIFE!
I THANKYOU MY ALLAH!!!!!
I AM YOUR SLAVE!
OH ALLAH!!!!!!!!!
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL !
YOU ARE PERFECT!
YOU KNOW ME BEST !
YOU ALWAYS CARE FOR ME!
MORE THAN I WILL EVER DESERVE!
SUBHANALLAH! YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO MAKE ME HAPPY
YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHEN AND HOW TO HELP ME
SHOW ME YOU'RE HERE, SHOW ME YOU CARE
ALHAMDULILAH ALHAMDULILLAH
THANKYOU ALLAH TAA'LA

FOR OPENING MY EYES
FOR OPENING MY HEART
FOR OPENING MY MIND
UNLOCKING MY SOUL TO MY SURROUNDINGS


NOW ALLAH TAA'LA
I STILL ASK OF YOU TO HELP ME GUARD MY HEART AND MY MIND
I REALLY NEED YOU TO HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS.
I CAN NEVER DO THIS ON MY OWN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REALLY RREALLLLY NEED YOUR HELP TO REPEL EVIL
TO ABSTAIN FROM EVERYTHING YOU ARE DISPLEASED WITH!
ALLAAAAHHHHHHH
I PRAY FOR SOLID FIRMNESS IN FAITH!
I PRAY THAT YOU BLESS EVERYONE I HAD THE HONOR OF MEETING TODAY!
BLESS MISS FRASER AND MISS HEATHER AND SAMEERA AND SHAKIRA AND JUST EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU

PLEASE JUST HOLD MY HAND
PLEASE DON'T LET ME FORGET THAT YOU ARE HERE
ALWAYS !
PLEASE....DON'T LET ME FORGET!

S.M.S. - Save My Soul

Bismillah Arrahman Arraheem

I feel extremely weak today Allah Taa'la :(
I feel down...which is so ironic because I felt like I was on the 7th heaven just yesterday!
Oh Allah ! I miss YOU! :(
Allaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
Alllaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

Help meeeeeeeeee
to break freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
of the objects of my slaveryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!

Alllaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh
I feel like the positive energy just gets sucked out of me
every time I ....
every time I
indulge in slavery...
of my desires

HOW HOW HOOOOOWWWWWWW
CAN I BREAK FREEE??????????
ALLLLAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
TELL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
SHOW MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
GUIDE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Alllaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I LOVE YOU :"(
I NEEEDD YOU AALLAAH!!
I NEED YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ThankYou for Teaching me!

Alhamdulillah!
SUBHANALLAH!
ALLAHU AKBAR!


DEAAARESSSTT ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA
I THANKYOU
for guiding me
Allllaaahhhhhh
This is what Really spoke to me today :

Every one of us was created with particular needs,
like the need to feel loved,
the need to be alone for a while,
the need to know that someone special awaits you at homeafter a long hard day at work,
the need to spend time with your children and kiss themto sleep,
the need to hear good words, etc..

When these needs go unsatisfied, an imbalance occurs within us that can affect the quality of our entire day.
We mightbecome irritable and cranky and not know why. A need within us has not been met that day.


We have been created with a need far greater and more critical for our complete wellbeing than any other…
It is the need to WORSHIP!!

This need to Worship, which is critical to our well being on this earth, can only be fulfilled with Prayer and Obedience to Allah Subhanau Taa'la!
This worldly life is full of hardships and aches.
We laugh one day, only to cry the next.
Its demands and toils leave us thirsty and tired.
What can quench this thirst better than prayer?

Let us then, find our comfort and relief in our rukuu and sujood..17 times each day, we bow... Our love for Allah has to grow with that. And when you love Him, He will love you even more for He is the Most Kind, the Most Generous. And who can ever harm you… when the Creator Himself, loves you?...!!!!!!!!!!

SUBHANALLAH!

You Make me Laugh !

Deeeeeeeeearesstt Sweeeeeeeeetest Trickiest FUNNIEST Allah Taa'laaaaaaaaa :P :D :D:D:D


YOU definitely have a sense of humor, Allah Taa'la hehe !
tricky tricky You arrre Allaah Taa'laaaaa
I mean on one hand...I'm trying to AVOID something because I believe it will lead me to disobeying You
and on the OTHER hand!
You just keep on making me CONFRONT IT wherever I go

I mean, VY YOU MESS WITH MY HEAD ?! :P

but i kinda see how this is.
Youuuuuuuu
are just testing me
You are testing me so that You can teach me something
and I definitely intend to get a lesson from everything that happens in my life
from everything that You make happen in my life!

You are testing me, so that once I get through with the test, I can be sure not to REPEAT my previous mistake
Hence, in essence, You are simply testing me to Improve me :)
thats why I Love YOU
because You are ARRAHAMAN ARRAHEEEM!!!!!!
YOU ALWAYS HAVE MY BEST INTEREST IN MIND WHEN YOU PUT ME IN DIFFERENT SITUATIONS
YOU ARE ALWAAAAAAAAYS BENEFITTING ME SOMEHOW
YOU ARE ON MY SIDE !!!! SUBHANALLAH!
You actually WANT TO HELP ME!
AND YOUR DOORS ARE ALWAYS OPEN FOR THOSE WHO NEED HELP AND GUIDANCE AND HEALING AND FORGIVENESS AND PURIFICATION!!!
SUBHANALLAH !
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND LOVING AND KIND AND MERCIFUL!
SUBHANALLAH
SUBHANALLAH
SUBHANALLAH
SUBHANALLAH
SUBHANALLAH
SUBHANALLAH!!!

ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA
I Love how You're so accesible :)
I can talk to You Whenever I want!

okay soooo
I realllyy need You to help me not to freak out when it comes to accounts.
I need You to help me keep my focus cause it gets intimidating at times...when I loose track of the basic concept and just get lost in the details..
phew, that road of confusion is just Not a pretty place to be in .
I am just DESPERATE for UNDERSTANDING
clear, Understanding of what I study

I just really cannot keep my head together all by myself.
I neeeed Youuuuu to help me organize my thoughts.
and study in a way that I take in what I Need to and not waste excess time on additional stuff that isn't all that important.

THATS what I DESPERATELY neeeed
I need to stop studying irrelevant stuff. Need to stop spending too much time concentrating so hard on material that isn't relevant to whats on the test!

this dua goes both for dunyawi studying as well as my study of Islam, the Quran, Hadeeth; all that too!
It is SOOOO important to understand WHAT IS IMPORTANT!
haha :P

Any hooooooo
Allah Taa'laaaaaaaaaaa :)
I think I should make it to accounts class early next time so I can sit allllll the way in the back on the Other end > hence saving myself from the constant disturbance of murmuring/whispering/chatting in the background! ahem!
annnnd Allah Taa'la
I'm just scared :(
scared of losing my focus on You
on whats 'important'
scared of getting caught up in the dunya :(
so SAVE ME Pleaaasesss!

I could talk to You all day my Lovely ALLAH TAA'LA :) !

oh and, I have a test tomorrow, so I pray that I can attempt it with a clear mind.
Allaahh Taaa'laaaaaaa
could You just tell me where to sit in class so I don't have to figure it out on my own ?
I'm so confused 0_0
I think its best if I sit Behind, cause that way my mind wont constantly be obsessing over blah de blah

Allaaahh Taa'laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I LOVE YOU :D:D:D:D:D
You love me even more than my MOMMY LOVES ME!
SUHANALLAH!!!!!
YA HAYYU YAQAYYUM!
PLEASE JUST HELP ME TO BE OBEDIENT TO YOU ALWAYS!

Save me From Myself

Deaaaaarest Loveliest Allah Subhanau Taa'la
I haven't started off the day too good :[
talked back to mom
Forgive meeeeeeee
help me to bite my tongue in the future!!

and I feel like the dunya is taking over me again
I didn't even bother to recite some verses properly today
I was just toooo concerned with getting 'work' done
I dont know WHEN i am going to learn that I can NEVER have any barakah in my work if I don't have a strong relationship with YOU first!

It really bothers me how narrow minded and selfish I am
I am ashamed that this is what I am getting from studying.

Oh Allah! I need You so much :( to improve myself!
I don't know why I can't get the thought out of my head that I AM NOT THE ONE WHO HAS COMPLETE CONTROL OVER MY LIFE
I don't know why I am still not FULLY TRUSTING YOU

Take Me Out of Here! Please.

Deaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaressssssssssssstttttttttt Allllaaaaaaaahhhhhh Subhanau Taa'laaaaaaaaa


When I'm falling down
Will You pick me up again?
When I'm too far gone
Dead in the eyes of my Friend

WILL YOU TAKE ME OUT OF HERE
WILL YOU TAKE ME OUT OF HERE
TAKE ME OUT OF HEEEEERRRRRREEEEE


I also want to Thank You
for Your Everlasting Love <3
enable me to Love You toooo! to Love You more than my own life!
ALLAHH
ALHAMDULILLAH!

You Know Exactly What I Need!

Dearest LOVELIEST Allah Subhanau Taa'la

ThankYou sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much for letting these words cross my eyes todayyyy

“When Allah knows you’re ready for the responsibility of commitment, He’ll reveal the right person under the right circumstances. Wait patiently.
Don’t waste your time searching and wishing. Grow and be ready, you’ll see Allah will give you a love story far better than you could ever dream of.”


I REALLY NEEDED to read this!!!!!!!!!

You always know exactly what I need!
SUBHANALLAH !
ALHAMDULILLAH !
THANKYOU ALLAH TAA'LA! :):):):):):):) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HUMILITY NEEDED!!! PRONTO

Dearest Allah Taa'la

I don't feel like a good person
I feel selfish
like a self righteous jerk

I feel like I'm annoying to my classmates
I feel like they think I'm a snob :(


How am I supposed to fix that ?
How do I be better?
to people?
be more friendly?
be sociable

I don't want to be a loner...or someone who thinks shes too 'above' everyone to talk to them

Allah Taa'la
I DON'T WANT TO BE PROUD OF ANYTHING THAT I SAY OR DO
I DON'T WANT TO BE PROUD OR ARROGANT OR RUDE

:(
Alllaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh
those other whispers aren't going away either ....
the ones that are like 'ooooooooooo take advantage of the fact that so and so likes you'

:(

I FEEL SO BAD


waaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
I NEED TO CHANGE
I NEED TO BE MORE HUMBLE
:(

Make Me Better

Dearest Allah Taa'la

I'm still alive
so that means
My time isn't up yet
You still want me to live

So if I have time
Why shouldn't I use it?
Why waste it when its limited anyways?

Makes sense to me

Allah Taa'la
I know I haven't exactly lived up to the title of
an Ummati of the Beloved Prophet Muhammad SalallahuAlayhaywasalam

I know I'm falling short in deeds as every second goes by
But I want to do better
I want to BE better
I want to be who You want me to be.


Allah Taa'la
Im so sick and tired of putting Islam second in my life
Im so tired of being around people who don't realize the urgency of our lives on this earth
I'm tired of not feeling motivated to
Love You
Be Obedient to You
Study the Quran
Understand what You want from me

It sickens me now whem I'm lazy
procrastination feels like a disease
Wasting time feels like a death sentence

Allah Taa'la
All I know is that I need to be better than this
I HAVE to be BETTER than this!
I AM MUCH better than THIS!

So Allah,
Please
Make me better Today than I was Yesterday
and make me better tomorrow than I will be today.

Beauty is Felt, not Seen

Beauty is what I feel

Everything Feels RIGHT

It feels so good
to write
to think
to Love
to forgive
to comfort, console, help.

It feels beautiful
to smile
to laugh
to run
to lay on the grass
to sit on the grass, with my back against a tree trunk

It feels beautiful
to do what I love
to say what I feel
to write what I feel

It feels beautiful
to tell You how I feel

to know You are always here
to hear me

to know you are always HERE
to HEAL me

SUBHANALLAH
It feels so beautiful
to know YOU are my Friend
to know You are with my till the end
Someone on Whom I can always depend

Allah!
Beauty is what You are
and I feel Beautiful.

Help me to FLY

Dearest Allah Taa'la
SUBHANALLAH
what a BEAUTIFUL DAY
What more could I ask for than this?

I'm surrounded by the sounds of Your incredible creations.
above me, blossoms are hanging in curtains SUBHANALLAH

The soft cool breeze caresses my cheeks.
ALHAMDULILAH

but Allah Taa'la
despite all the beauty surrounding me
There is unrest in my heart.
I am not at peace inside.
I am saying this because, I just can't seem to accept my Dad.
I've tried so hard to just ignore the wrong I see in him.
I've tried SO hard not to judge him
I've tried extremely hard to just forgive him and let go of the hurt I've felt and stop feeling this venomous anger inside of me

But no matter how hard I try, the negative emotions just keep resurfacing
No matter How deep I bury them, they're always back from the dead, ready to torture me...
ready to seize my peace

Allah Taa'la
I need You to help me get out of these negative emotions,
I just want to bury that hatchet with dad once and for all.
I want to forgive him in my heart.

I need to be free.

So unchain me Allah Taa'la
Remove these shackles around my heart.

Help me to fly.

Save him.

Dearest Allah Taa'la

It was so humbling talking to Babajan last night
Tears flowing down his eyes, trembling with grief and so much hurt...it almost killed me inside to see him like that.

Ya Allah, he needs your Rehm.
Ya Allah he needs to be shown, to be told how to get back to You the right way.
He needs to know that he HAS to stop trying to seeking you through random means :[

Oh Allah
Please, never EVER let me judge him.
Please never Ever let me think for even the blink of an eye that I am in anyway, better than him!
ASTAGHFIRULLAH!
Please heal him , please bring him out of the darkness he has put himself into all these years.
Remove the veil from his eyes that has been blinding him for so long
I want for him to understand the TRUTH so BAD
But I don't know how to get to him
How to make him understand?

You're the only one who can save him at this point.

In fact, you're the ONLY ONE who can save him ever!
Nothing is in my hands

Allah Taa'la
I just pray to YOU to show him the way PLEASE.
to get him back on the right way.
PLEASE
somehow.


Save him Allah Taa'la...before its too late.

YOU ARE A GENIOUS

Dearest Allah Taa'la, whom I can talk to immediately whenever my heart feels like it!

I feel like there's a burden on my heart
I don't know what to do about it
I'm sure You know exactly what to do to comfort me, and provide a solution to my problem

For You are undoubtedly equipped with Everlasting Power and Knowledge

So Allah Taa'la
I just really really what You to point out a direction of thinking for me
because this 'burden' always fogs my sanity. It literally just takes over my intellect.
I become a slave to my burden instantly
and at times, Astaghfirullah, it causes me to become forgetful and ignorant of You! Astaghfirullah! Im so sorry about being weak-minded
so I just sincerely repent to You for the times that I have let this burden take over me and I pray that You can protect from letting this burden become unbearably heavy to bear!

Allah Taa'la
give me the confidence to face this burden
give the strength to uphold it
to grab it by the neck and just shove it out of my way like it weighs no more than a feather!

Allah Taa'la
I'm just scared
and I don't want any fear or grief when I know that I have You by my side ALL THE TIME!
Allah Taa'la
I can't tell you how choked up I feel when this burden shows up in front of me.
I feel emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually CHOKED UP AND PARALYZED

I just immediately loose control of myself
and thats what I despise !!!!!
I can't afford to loose control!

that loss of control is what scares me so much
because I fear it will weaken by relationship with You



Allah Taa'la !!!!!!!!!
I just noticed something!
YOU ARE A GENIOUS :D :D:D:D:D

You are training me to be attached to You no matter How distracting my surroundings and no matter how heavy my burdens may be! :D WOW !!!
YOU ARE A GENIOUS :D
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR GENIOUS WISDOM
WOW :D
YOU JUST BLOW MY MIND MY ALLAH ! HEHEHE
SERIOUSLY, THERE AIN'T NOBODY BETTER THAN YOU, OH ALMIGHTY AND WISE :D

okie so byebyeee :D I LOVE YOU
AND THANKYOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Like a Flowing River

Dearest, Sweetest Loveliest Allah Subhana u Taa'la

I Love You

I THANK YOU

with all my heart

I thank You for giving me friendship as pure as Azka's
I Thank You for giving me peace
I Thank You for helping me to let go of things I have no use for
I Thank You for opening my internal eyes
I Thank You for allowing me to remember You!

Oh Allah!
Please Please!
Never let me Forget who I am
Never let me forget where I am from
Never let me forget my home
Never let me forget where I am going

Allah Taa'la !
Please don't let met settle in to a 'comfortable' lifestyle!
I want to be constantly challenged to do my very best
I do not want to risk putting my soul to sleep
I do not want why mind to take control of everything
Allah Taa'la!
I want to utilize the time you have blessed me with!
I don't want to be a waster
I do not want to run after the goods of this world!
Allah Taa'la!
save me from the slavery of this Dunya!
and bless me with the slavery of the Akhira!

Allah Taa'la
I don't want to take my Deen lightly
I don't want to slack
I don't want to procrastinate doing good deeds!
I don't want to be lazy when it comes to serving the Deen!
I want to put in my heart and soul to serving You!
I want to be driven by a spiritual enthusiasm to DO More!

Allah Taa'la

I know I'm asking for a lot but I promise I will never forget to thank You for everything You have Already blessed me with!

ThankYou ThankYou ThankYOU!

ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH !!!!!!!

ThankYou for Your Love!

Dearest Allah Taa'la :) :) :) :) :) :)

I never have much to say whenever I address you initially hehe
and I just stare at the screen blankly :P :)

I guess I'll just start by Thanking You because I can never EVER Thank You enough for Allllllllll the Blessings you have bestowed upon my in my life !!!!
and whats even More beautiful is that You are continually blessing me each second that I breathe !

I exist because of You!
I am alive because of You!
so what right do I have not to spend me life in accordance to what You have asked me to do ?!

Oh my dearest Allah Subhana u Taa'la! If only I could truly let that thought sink in to my soul!
If only I could TRULY LIVE what I just said !
I pray that you help me to ignore the countless distractions in this life and to focus solely on You!

I pray that EVERY thought in my mind is related to Your Remembrance and Glorification!
Oh Allah! I pray that I always keep in mind the fact that I will stand in front of You one day!
Oh Allah! I pray to you that I can adorn my soul for You!
I pray that I do EVERYTHING in my life to impress You and You alone!
I pray that You are my heart's Beloved!
I pray that my heart is a slave to none but You!
I pray that I can spend the rest of my life getting ready to meet you INSHALLAH when the world comes to an end!
I pray that I can be among those Extremely lucky souls who will be given the Honour of seeing You in the Hereafter!!!
Oh Allah ! How I long to see How Beautiful You are!!!
Oh Allah! It amazes me just to see Your creation !
I can't even IMAGINE how beautiful You are !!!

Oh my Dearest Dearest, Loveliest Allah!!!
I pray that my heart loves You and You alone!
I pray that my heart Loves You, the Prophet Muhammad (Peace and Blessings be Upon him! ), the Companions ( May You be pleased with them! ) and all those who love you intensely!!


Oh my Pyaray Allah Taa'la!

I pray that I continue to pray to You till my last breath
I pray that I continue to keep in touch with You in my life so I do not go astray!

Oh Allaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
I just want to practice what Your Beloved (Peace Be Upon him!) was sent here to teach us !
I sincerely want to understand what You want me to do in this life
I sincerely want to understand and adopt Your commandments Allah Taa'la!
So I ask for Your help to make it easy for me, to guide me , to increase me in Knowledge of Islam!

Allah Taa'la
I need You
I need You
I need You


Please never ever let me be ignorant of You for even a second!!!!!!!!!
ThankYou Allah Taa'la
ThankYou for EVERYTHING
but most importantly,
ThankYou for Your Love!

Dearest Allah

Dearest Allah Subhana u Taa'la

The day hasn't even started and I'm giving in to Satan's whispers already!
Whaat am I going to do with myself?!
"I seek refuge from Allah from the outcast Satan." !

Allah Taa'la
I want to be more connected with the muslim community.
please help me to do more than just intend to connect with muslims
please give me the courage to go up to muslims and say salam
please give me the open mindedness not to judge anyone about their faith
pleaaase Allah Taaa'laaa pleaaase help me to erase my pride
I NEVER want to think that I am superior to anyone in faith, because that in itself is an indication that I my faith is inferior and that I MYSELF AM flawed!!!

Oh DEAREST DEAREST LOVELIEST ALLAH TAA'LA
I want my thoughts to be pure
please help me to control my thoughts
please help me to monitor what goes on in my head
please help me to censor my thoughts
please please help me to be faithful to YOU even in my THOUGHTS!

Oh DEAREST DEAREST LOVELIEST ALLAH TAA'LA
I beg for Your Mercy and Forgiveness!!!!!!!!!
I am a Faqir, in complete need of Your Love!

Allah Taa'la!
how could I possibly live without You?
Allah Taa'la
please please help me to wake up for Fajr on time! :O
I haven't even heard the alarm clock go off for two days straight!

Oh DEAREST DEAREST LOVELIEST ALLAH TAA'LA
I LOVE YOU ! I LOVE YOU ! HELP me to be obedient to You!
please Help me to Love the Blessed Prophet Muhammad Salalahu alayhaywasalam!
Please help me to follow the Sunnah!!!
Allah Taa'la
:) I Love how I can talk to You anywhere, anytime!
Like right here in this blog
or when I'm driving..eating...walking..
I can communicate with you practically ANYWHERE! \
SUBHANALLAH !
You are indeed the MOST MAGNIFICENT! YOU are All-Knowing! All-SEEING! ALL-HEARING!!!!
SUBHANALLAH ! SUBHANALLAH ! SUBHANALLAH ! SUBHANALLAH ! SUBHANALLAH ! SUBHANALLAH !


THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING ALLAH TAA'LA!

ALHAMDULILLAH!! ALHAMDULILLAH!! ALHAMDULILLAH!! ALHAMDULILLAH!! ALHAMDULILLAH!! ALHAMDULILLAH!!

How Do You Feel?

I feel blessed to have access to Youtube videos of Islamic Leaders like Brother Nouman Ali Khan!
I feel so motivated to DO something for the UMMAH whenever I listen to his talks!
I feel relaxed, less tense, intellectually 'fresh', spiritually peaceful.
I feel like I can accomplish anything (though not on my own, of course)

I Want to Write for YOU

Write Write Write Write Write
All these thoughts in my head
organize them
make them exist

thats what I Love doing

I love giving birth to my thoughts into this world :D :D :D

I Love speaking what my soul contains !

Why wouldn't I love it ?

What other joy is there in the entire world other than being heard, understood, connected to others.....?

Connected to people around you
Connected to their souls
Connected to that common light all of us share
And then ultimately, Connecting with the One who has given us our individual light!

That, in reality is the true beauty of LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALLAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH TAAAAAAAAAAAA'LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to do EVERYTHING in my power
to Please YOU!
to invoke YOUR LOVE!
to win You over!!!!!

because YOU are the Love of my Life!
Your Love is what GIVES ME LIGHT!
Your Love is the cause for my soul's flight!
Your Love has cast away the blindness in my sight!!!!

Allllaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Taaaaaaaaaa'laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I want to WRITE for YOU
I want to WORK for YOU
I want to STUDY for YOU

I want to WRITE all the days of my life,
Just for YOU

I LOVE YOU

Allaaaaaaaaaaah Taaa'laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

^__________________________^

:D
I LOVE YOU CAUSE YOU ALWAYS RESPOND TO ME
I LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU LOVE IT EVEN WHEN I MENTION YOUR NAME
I LOVE YOU BECAUSE ITS SO EASY AND HEALING TO LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU BECAUSE IT DOESN'T HURT TO HURT LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU BECAUSE EVEN THE 'PAIN' IS HEALING
I LOVE YOU BECAUSE I HAVE NO REASON IN THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE NOT TO !
I LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU KNOW ME
I LOVE YOU BECAUSE WE HAVE A CONNECTION
AN EVERLASTING CONNECTION!

SUBHANALLAH SUBHANALLAH SUBHANALLAH SUBHANALLAH

MY HEART JUST WANTS TO LOVE! AND WHO BETTER TO LOVE THAN YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH ALLAH TAA'LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO BURST OUT OF THIS CAGE OF FLESH AND RISE TO THE CLOUDS TO COME MEET YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trust the One Who made you!

Most Loveliest Allah Taa'laaa :)

I don't want to be in control of my Life
I don't want to hold the steering wheel
I don't want to think that I know ANYTHING

I don't want to feel like I have to take care of Everything that goes on in my life
I don't want to feel like I am burdened
I don't want to trust myself with Myself Alone

I don't feel that I am trustworthy
I don't feel I know what is good for me

I Do feel,However that I want You to control my Life
I Do Feel that You're the Only One who can steer me into the right direction.
After all, You're the One who knows everything about me,
so who better than You to guide me?

I want to feel like you are here for me
I want to feel like I am cared for
I want to feel like I'm not alone here on this earth
I want to feel like my intellect..my thoughts..my mind isn't all that I have.

I want to feel like there is more to life than what it is portrayed as
I really want to understand what it is
I really want You to tell me What Life IS
Who I am
Where I am from
Where I am going
and Where is my return!


Oh Allah, how could I possibly know how to live
if it wasn't for Your guidance?
I am like a child
till this day, even in the body of an adult
I am a child
I Don't know a thing
So I question to Know
I accept what is told to me
wholeheartedly, without judgement, without doubt
yet not everything I am told is true
That leaves me utterly confused
Not knowing what to do
Who do I look up to
Where do I turn
I thought these people
knew the truth

Where is the TRUTH, I say
Why does it seem so far away?
I Thought Islam was the answer
a Clear, simple Way

What is all this fuss?
This commotion, this chaos
Why is it so complicated
to understand
the Simplicity at hand?
As simple as it sounds,
Simplicity is a rarity
Countless enter this world
a handful live with clarity

We come into this world
wanting to know the truth
But I have a feeling
what matters more to us is proof.
Truth is just a word
or a person or a book
Truth must be believed without physical proof
because there is none that Truly exists which is clearly visible to us
Thats what we don't get
That ONE thing
that ONE piece of Evidence
tht ONE Being who is Hidden from us
causes us to doubt the truth
to argue with the truth
to debate about the truth
to try to prove the truth through means that are convincing to us

So the Truth is all around us
but are we willing to believe it ?
Are willing to believe it on the basis of Truth or on the basis of Proof?

So what makes it easier to believe?
What makes it easier to accept the truth with the limited proof at hand?
an open mind
a wise mind that is able to feel that there is More to life than what is apparent
A person who realizes that
Life itself is something we cannot bring forth or end by ourselves
Life itself is something that isn't in our grasp
We can't control how long we live, when we die, how we die, where we are born....

So if life itself it not in our hands
if life itself comes and goes from an unknown source
phir how how how can I say that the truth of how to Live this Mysterious Life is Known to me?


I have a feeling this might sound like I'm talking in confusing riddles
So here's what I want to say :
Love Allah, Trust Him cause He made You and He's the only One who can TRULY help you live your life in the best possible way!!!!

I seek Perfection and I seek You.

Dearest, Most BELOVED Allah Taa'la

So many thoughts cross my mind
So many whispers I hear
But none of what I think does me any good if it is not addressed to You

Everything I think in Ignorance of you leads me astray
Leads me into a black hole
Where I spin faster and faster
deeper and deeper into the depths of darkness
and
nothingness

Oh Allah!
but still, that darkness has its benefits.
at the moments when I feel I am in the deepest black hole
that is when Your Light TRULY ILLUMINATES me

that is when even the faintest hint of Your Light shines through
brighter than the stars and the moon and the sun!

Allah Taa'la

Seeking You means everything to me.
Seeking Your Love
Your Kindness
Your Mercy
Your Friendship
Your Happiness

I Love Seeking You!
Do You also Love being sought?
Do You also Love being my Friend?
Do You also Love helping me ?

Allah Taa'la

How could I EVER seek ANYONE but YOU?
WHY on earth and in the entire universe would I desire to seek anyone but YOU?
YOU are the perfect Being to be sought because You Are PERFECT. :)

I seek Perfection and I seek You.

Gratitude Check List

Dearest Allah Taa'la

Today, I thank You for
how my day started
so innocent and pure, happy, peaceful, excited, open to everything the world had to offer me.
However, I seek forgiveness for getting kinda annoyed when I couldn't park the car right.
I also thank You for the breakfast I had
I thank you for mommy's loveliness :) she was so loving to me in the morning :) I love laughing with her and playing with her :) I love being like a kid with her.
Oh Allah, I could never thank You enough for my mother. <3
Oh Allah Taa'la

I thankyou You for that BEAUTIFUL show on the radio I listened to in the morning
it made me Love You so much
it explained so well Who You are :)
I remember the RJ saying that you are watching over our external + internal affairs. and you are Ever Present. You are helping us at every single second in our lives.
and it is crucial that we ask Help form You at every second too ! Because you Want to help us!!! You WANT to LOVE US! :D <3
you Want US to Love You TOO! :D
hehe You're sooo Loveable! :D
and..I remember the RJ saying that you are our Refuge..our physical refuge..meaning not only do You provide physical, Tangible security and sustenance BUT you also provide intangible support to us. You are our emotional refuge.
You erase our fears and are always ready to listen to our problems.
You are always here to comfort us when we are disturbed.
You are always the FIRST one to soothe us and erase our sadness!
ALHAMDULILAH!!

I WHOLEHEARTEDLY Thank You for that radio show today, Allah Taa'la. :) Because it REALLY touched my heart to the CORE! ^_^

Bless the RJ! ^_^

furthermore, I am thankful for getting full marks on my math quiz ^_^ I am thankful for Feeling much more relaxed. THANKYOUU for making me less paranoid among people!
I was having such a problem with Connecting/communicating with people before spring break.
but today, after going back to college, seeing those familiar faces was a comfort to me instead of something to fear.
I felt more free to move around
I felt more free internally for some reason
I felt like everyone is my friend
I wonder why I didn't feel that way before?
It is SUCH a blessing to feel at ease now :)
I must say the lovely weather seemed to have played a role in it :D
everybody seemed more jolly as well ^_^

so yeah, I am grateful for that sense of communion that I felt :) and I pray that it only continues to grow as I spend more time at Blooomsburg and BLOOOOOM into the Flower that is me LOL :D

I ammmmmm also thankful forrr the math lesson! I love math! I am grateful for being able to understand what was going on in class ! I am thankful to you for the teacher for explaining why the trigonometric derivative formulas are True.
It really cleared my concept about the formulas
made it easier to memorize them!
I am thankful foorrr the SPLENDID WEATHER!
I am thankful for being able to pray on campus :)
I am thankful for being able to talk to you in my Dua
I am thankful for that beautifullll song by Britt Nicole. It made me Love You sooo much Allah Taa'la!!! <3 <3 <3
Allah Taaa'laaaaaaa I am thankful for being able to do the math sums effortlessly on my math lab :) I am thankful for being able to solve the questions with understanding
I am thankful that my stress levels have gone down so SIGNIFICANTLY because of YOU!
I LOVE YOU ALLAH !!!!!!!!!!!!!
annnnd :) I am thankful for Prof Robson :) I am sooo lucky to have such a funnnyy cuuute booray say teacher ^_^ and he's soo nice to me ^_^
annnd Allah Taa'la I am grateful for this second
Grateful for my parents
Grateful for the improvement in my relationship with Babajan :)
annnd Thankyou times infinity ^_^