Dearest Allah Taa'la
I'm still alive
so that means
My time isn't up yet
You still want me to live
So if I have time
Why shouldn't I use it?
Why waste it when its limited anyways?
Makes sense to me
Allah Taa'la
I know I haven't exactly lived up to the title of
an Ummati of the Beloved Prophet Muhammad SalallahuAlayhaywasalam
I know I'm falling short in deeds as every second goes by
But I want to do better
I want to BE better
I want to be who You want me to be.
Allah Taa'la
Im so sick and tired of putting Islam second in my life
Im so tired of being around people who don't realize the urgency of our lives on this earth
I'm tired of not feeling motivated to
Love You
Be Obedient to You
Study the Quran
Understand what You want from me
It sickens me now whem I'm lazy
procrastination feels like a disease
Wasting time feels like a death sentence
Allah Taa'la
All I know is that I need to be better than this
I HAVE to be BETTER than this!
I AM MUCH better than THIS!
So Allah,
Please
Make me better Today than I was Yesterday
and make me better tomorrow than I will be today.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Beauty is Felt, not Seen
Beauty is what I feel
Everything Feels RIGHT
It feels so good
to write
to think
to Love
to forgive
to comfort, console, help.
It feels beautiful
to smile
to laugh
to run
to lay on the grass
to sit on the grass, with my back against a tree trunk
It feels beautiful
to do what I love
to say what I feel
to write what I feel
It feels beautiful
to tell You how I feel
to know You are always here
to hear me
to know you are always HERE
to HEAL me
SUBHANALLAH
It feels so beautiful
to know YOU are my Friend
to know You are with my till the end
Someone on Whom I can always depend
Allah!
Beauty is what You are
and I feel Beautiful.
Everything Feels RIGHT
It feels so good
to write
to think
to Love
to forgive
to comfort, console, help.
It feels beautiful
to smile
to laugh
to run
to lay on the grass
to sit on the grass, with my back against a tree trunk
It feels beautiful
to do what I love
to say what I feel
to write what I feel
It feels beautiful
to tell You how I feel
to know You are always here
to hear me
to know you are always HERE
to HEAL me
SUBHANALLAH
It feels so beautiful
to know YOU are my Friend
to know You are with my till the end
Someone on Whom I can always depend
Allah!
Beauty is what You are
and I feel Beautiful.
Help me to FLY
Dearest Allah Taa'la
SUBHANALLAH
what a BEAUTIFUL DAY
What more could I ask for than this?
I'm surrounded by the sounds of Your incredible creations.
above me, blossoms are hanging in curtains SUBHANALLAH
The soft cool breeze caresses my cheeks.
ALHAMDULILAH
but Allah Taa'la
despite all the beauty surrounding me
There is unrest in my heart.
I am not at peace inside.
I am saying this because, I just can't seem to accept my Dad.
I've tried so hard to just ignore the wrong I see in him.
I've tried SO hard not to judge him
I've tried extremely hard to just forgive him and let go of the hurt I've felt and stop feeling this venomous anger inside of me
But no matter how hard I try, the negative emotions just keep resurfacing
No matter How deep I bury them, they're always back from the dead, ready to torture me...
ready to seize my peace
Allah Taa'la
I need You to help me get out of these negative emotions,
I just want to bury that hatchet with dad once and for all.
I want to forgive him in my heart.
I need to be free.
So unchain me Allah Taa'la
Remove these shackles around my heart.
Help me to fly.
SUBHANALLAH
what a BEAUTIFUL DAY
What more could I ask for than this?
I'm surrounded by the sounds of Your incredible creations.
above me, blossoms are hanging in curtains SUBHANALLAH
The soft cool breeze caresses my cheeks.
ALHAMDULILAH
but Allah Taa'la
despite all the beauty surrounding me
There is unrest in my heart.
I am not at peace inside.
I am saying this because, I just can't seem to accept my Dad.
I've tried so hard to just ignore the wrong I see in him.
I've tried SO hard not to judge him
I've tried extremely hard to just forgive him and let go of the hurt I've felt and stop feeling this venomous anger inside of me
But no matter how hard I try, the negative emotions just keep resurfacing
No matter How deep I bury them, they're always back from the dead, ready to torture me...
ready to seize my peace
Allah Taa'la
I need You to help me get out of these negative emotions,
I just want to bury that hatchet with dad once and for all.
I want to forgive him in my heart.
I need to be free.
So unchain me Allah Taa'la
Remove these shackles around my heart.
Help me to fly.
Save him.
Dearest Allah Taa'la
It was so humbling talking to Babajan last night
Tears flowing down his eyes, trembling with grief and so much hurt...it almost killed me inside to see him like that.
Ya Allah, he needs your Rehm.
Ya Allah he needs to be shown, to be told how to get back to You the right way.
He needs to know that he HAS to stop trying to seeking you through random means :[
Oh Allah
Please, never EVER let me judge him.
Please never Ever let me think for even the blink of an eye that I am in anyway, better than him!
ASTAGHFIRULLAH!
Please heal him , please bring him out of the darkness he has put himself into all these years.
Remove the veil from his eyes that has been blinding him for so long
I want for him to understand the TRUTH so BAD
But I don't know how to get to him
How to make him understand?
You're the only one who can save him at this point.
In fact, you're the ONLY ONE who can save him ever!
Nothing is in my hands
Allah Taa'la
I just pray to YOU to show him the way PLEASE.
to get him back on the right way.
PLEASE
somehow.
Save him Allah Taa'la...before its too late.
It was so humbling talking to Babajan last night
Tears flowing down his eyes, trembling with grief and so much hurt...it almost killed me inside to see him like that.
Ya Allah, he needs your Rehm.
Ya Allah he needs to be shown, to be told how to get back to You the right way.
He needs to know that he HAS to stop trying to seeking you through random means :[
Oh Allah
Please, never EVER let me judge him.
Please never Ever let me think for even the blink of an eye that I am in anyway, better than him!
ASTAGHFIRULLAH!
Please heal him , please bring him out of the darkness he has put himself into all these years.
Remove the veil from his eyes that has been blinding him for so long
I want for him to understand the TRUTH so BAD
But I don't know how to get to him
How to make him understand?
You're the only one who can save him at this point.
In fact, you're the ONLY ONE who can save him ever!
Nothing is in my hands
Allah Taa'la
I just pray to YOU to show him the way PLEASE.
to get him back on the right way.
PLEASE
somehow.
Save him Allah Taa'la...before its too late.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
YOU ARE A GENIOUS
Dearest Allah Taa'la, whom I can talk to immediately whenever my heart feels like it!
I feel like there's a burden on my heart
I don't know what to do about it
I'm sure You know exactly what to do to comfort me, and provide a solution to my problem
For You are undoubtedly equipped with Everlasting Power and Knowledge
So Allah Taa'la
I just really really what You to point out a direction of thinking for me
because this 'burden' always fogs my sanity. It literally just takes over my intellect.
I become a slave to my burden instantly
and at times, Astaghfirullah, it causes me to become forgetful and ignorant of You! Astaghfirullah! Im so sorry about being weak-minded
so I just sincerely repent to You for the times that I have let this burden take over me and I pray that You can protect from letting this burden become unbearably heavy to bear!
Allah Taa'la
give me the confidence to face this burden
give the strength to uphold it
to grab it by the neck and just shove it out of my way like it weighs no more than a feather!
Allah Taa'la
I'm just scared
and I don't want any fear or grief when I know that I have You by my side ALL THE TIME!
Allah Taa'la
I can't tell you how choked up I feel when this burden shows up in front of me.
I feel emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually CHOKED UP AND PARALYZED
I just immediately loose control of myself
and thats what I despise !!!!!
I can't afford to loose control!
that loss of control is what scares me so much
because I fear it will weaken by relationship with You
Allah Taa'la !!!!!!!!!
I just noticed something!
YOU ARE A GENIOUS :D :D:D:D:D
You are training me to be attached to You no matter How distracting my surroundings and no matter how heavy my burdens may be! :D WOW !!!
YOU ARE A GENIOUS :D
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR GENIOUS WISDOM
WOW :D
YOU JUST BLOW MY MIND MY ALLAH ! HEHEHE
SERIOUSLY, THERE AIN'T NOBODY BETTER THAN YOU, OH ALMIGHTY AND WISE :D
okie so byebyeee :D I LOVE YOU
AND THANKYOU!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like there's a burden on my heart
I don't know what to do about it
I'm sure You know exactly what to do to comfort me, and provide a solution to my problem
For You are undoubtedly equipped with Everlasting Power and Knowledge
So Allah Taa'la
I just really really what You to point out a direction of thinking for me
because this 'burden' always fogs my sanity. It literally just takes over my intellect.
I become a slave to my burden instantly
and at times, Astaghfirullah, it causes me to become forgetful and ignorant of You! Astaghfirullah! Im so sorry about being weak-minded
so I just sincerely repent to You for the times that I have let this burden take over me and I pray that You can protect from letting this burden become unbearably heavy to bear!
Allah Taa'la
give me the confidence to face this burden
give the strength to uphold it
to grab it by the neck and just shove it out of my way like it weighs no more than a feather!
Allah Taa'la
I'm just scared
and I don't want any fear or grief when I know that I have You by my side ALL THE TIME!
Allah Taa'la
I can't tell you how choked up I feel when this burden shows up in front of me.
I feel emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually CHOKED UP AND PARALYZED
I just immediately loose control of myself
and thats what I despise !!!!!
I can't afford to loose control!
that loss of control is what scares me so much
because I fear it will weaken by relationship with You
Allah Taa'la !!!!!!!!!
I just noticed something!
YOU ARE A GENIOUS :D :D:D:D:D
You are training me to be attached to You no matter How distracting my surroundings and no matter how heavy my burdens may be! :D WOW !!!
YOU ARE A GENIOUS :D
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR GENIOUS WISDOM
WOW :D
YOU JUST BLOW MY MIND MY ALLAH ! HEHEHE
SERIOUSLY, THERE AIN'T NOBODY BETTER THAN YOU, OH ALMIGHTY AND WISE :D
okie so byebyeee :D I LOVE YOU
AND THANKYOU!!!!!!!!!!!
Like a Flowing River
Dearest, Sweetest Loveliest Allah Subhana u Taa'la
I Love You
I THANK YOU
with all my heart
I thank You for giving me friendship as pure as Azka's
I Thank You for giving me peace
I Thank You for helping me to let go of things I have no use for
I Thank You for opening my internal eyes
I Thank You for allowing me to remember You!
Oh Allah!
Please Please!
Never let me Forget who I am
Never let me forget where I am from
Never let me forget my home
Never let me forget where I am going
Allah Taa'la !
Please don't let met settle in to a 'comfortable' lifestyle!
I want to be constantly challenged to do my very best
I do not want to risk putting my soul to sleep
I do not want why mind to take control of everything
Allah Taa'la!
I want to utilize the time you have blessed me with!
I don't want to be a waster
I do not want to run after the goods of this world!
Allah Taa'la!
save me from the slavery of this Dunya!
and bless me with the slavery of the Akhira!
Allah Taa'la
I don't want to take my Deen lightly
I don't want to slack
I don't want to procrastinate doing good deeds!
I don't want to be lazy when it comes to serving the Deen!
I want to put in my heart and soul to serving You!
I want to be driven by a spiritual enthusiasm to DO More!
Allah Taa'la
I know I'm asking for a lot but I promise I will never forget to thank You for everything You have Already blessed me with!
ThankYou ThankYou ThankYOU!
ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH !!!!!!!
I Love You
I THANK YOU
with all my heart
I thank You for giving me friendship as pure as Azka's
I Thank You for giving me peace
I Thank You for helping me to let go of things I have no use for
I Thank You for opening my internal eyes
I Thank You for allowing me to remember You!
Oh Allah!
Please Please!
Never let me Forget who I am
Never let me forget where I am from
Never let me forget my home
Never let me forget where I am going
Allah Taa'la !
Please don't let met settle in to a 'comfortable' lifestyle!
I want to be constantly challenged to do my very best
I do not want to risk putting my soul to sleep
I do not want why mind to take control of everything
Allah Taa'la!
I want to utilize the time you have blessed me with!
I don't want to be a waster
I do not want to run after the goods of this world!
Allah Taa'la!
save me from the slavery of this Dunya!
and bless me with the slavery of the Akhira!
Allah Taa'la
I don't want to take my Deen lightly
I don't want to slack
I don't want to procrastinate doing good deeds!
I don't want to be lazy when it comes to serving the Deen!
I want to put in my heart and soul to serving You!
I want to be driven by a spiritual enthusiasm to DO More!
Allah Taa'la
I know I'm asking for a lot but I promise I will never forget to thank You for everything You have Already blessed me with!
ThankYou ThankYou ThankYOU!
ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH !!!!!!!
Thursday, March 22, 2012
ThankYou for Your Love!
Dearest Allah Taa'la :) :) :) :) :) :)
I never have much to say whenever I address you initially hehe
and I just stare at the screen blankly :P :)
I guess I'll just start by Thanking You because I can never EVER Thank You enough for Allllllllll the Blessings you have bestowed upon my in my life !!!!
and whats even More beautiful is that You are continually blessing me each second that I breathe !
I exist because of You!
I am alive because of You!
so what right do I have not to spend me life in accordance to what You have asked me to do ?!
Oh my dearest Allah Subhana u Taa'la! If only I could truly let that thought sink in to my soul!
If only I could TRULY LIVE what I just said !
I pray that you help me to ignore the countless distractions in this life and to focus solely on You!
I pray that EVERY thought in my mind is related to Your Remembrance and Glorification!
Oh Allah! I pray that I always keep in mind the fact that I will stand in front of You one day!
Oh Allah! I pray to you that I can adorn my soul for You!
I pray that I do EVERYTHING in my life to impress You and You alone!
I pray that You are my heart's Beloved!
I pray that my heart is a slave to none but You!
I pray that I can spend the rest of my life getting ready to meet you INSHALLAH when the world comes to an end!
I pray that I can be among those Extremely lucky souls who will be given the Honour of seeing You in the Hereafter!!!
Oh Allah ! How I long to see How Beautiful You are!!!
Oh Allah! It amazes me just to see Your creation !
I can't even IMAGINE how beautiful You are !!!
Oh my Dearest Dearest, Loveliest Allah!!!
I pray that my heart loves You and You alone!
I pray that my heart Loves You, the Prophet Muhammad (Peace and Blessings be Upon him! ), the Companions ( May You be pleased with them! ) and all those who love you intensely!!
Oh my Pyaray Allah Taa'la!
I pray that I continue to pray to You till my last breath
I pray that I continue to keep in touch with You in my life so I do not go astray!
Oh Allaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
I just want to practice what Your Beloved (Peace Be Upon him!) was sent here to teach us !
I sincerely want to understand what You want me to do in this life
I sincerely want to understand and adopt Your commandments Allah Taa'la!
So I ask for Your help to make it easy for me, to guide me , to increase me in Knowledge of Islam!
Allah Taa'la
I need You
I need You
I need You
Please never ever let me be ignorant of You for even a second!!!!!!!!!
ThankYou Allah Taa'la
ThankYou for EVERYTHING
but most importantly,
ThankYou for Your Love!
I never have much to say whenever I address you initially hehe
and I just stare at the screen blankly :P :)
I guess I'll just start by Thanking You because I can never EVER Thank You enough for Allllllllll the Blessings you have bestowed upon my in my life !!!!
and whats even More beautiful is that You are continually blessing me each second that I breathe !
I exist because of You!
I am alive because of You!
so what right do I have not to spend me life in accordance to what You have asked me to do ?!
Oh my dearest Allah Subhana u Taa'la! If only I could truly let that thought sink in to my soul!
If only I could TRULY LIVE what I just said !
I pray that you help me to ignore the countless distractions in this life and to focus solely on You!
I pray that EVERY thought in my mind is related to Your Remembrance and Glorification!
Oh Allah! I pray that I always keep in mind the fact that I will stand in front of You one day!
Oh Allah! I pray to you that I can adorn my soul for You!
I pray that I do EVERYTHING in my life to impress You and You alone!
I pray that You are my heart's Beloved!
I pray that my heart is a slave to none but You!
I pray that I can spend the rest of my life getting ready to meet you INSHALLAH when the world comes to an end!
I pray that I can be among those Extremely lucky souls who will be given the Honour of seeing You in the Hereafter!!!
Oh Allah ! How I long to see How Beautiful You are!!!
Oh Allah! It amazes me just to see Your creation !
I can't even IMAGINE how beautiful You are !!!
Oh my Dearest Dearest, Loveliest Allah!!!
I pray that my heart loves You and You alone!
I pray that my heart Loves You, the Prophet Muhammad (Peace and Blessings be Upon him! ), the Companions ( May You be pleased with them! ) and all those who love you intensely!!
Oh my Pyaray Allah Taa'la!
I pray that I continue to pray to You till my last breath
I pray that I continue to keep in touch with You in my life so I do not go astray!
Oh Allaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
I just want to practice what Your Beloved (Peace Be Upon him!) was sent here to teach us !
I sincerely want to understand what You want me to do in this life
I sincerely want to understand and adopt Your commandments Allah Taa'la!
So I ask for Your help to make it easy for me, to guide me , to increase me in Knowledge of Islam!
Allah Taa'la
I need You
I need You
I need You
Please never ever let me be ignorant of You for even a second!!!!!!!!!
ThankYou Allah Taa'la
ThankYou for EVERYTHING
but most importantly,
ThankYou for Your Love!
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