BISMILLAHIRRAHMAANIRAHEEM
Ya Rahmaan Ya Raheem
My Dearest ALLAH TAA'LA
I feel like the self obsession is creeping back in
that negative emotion is close by
I can sense it at this moment
I sense it in the way it pleases me to see the number of likes increasing on a photo I uploaded on facebook
I feel it in the way I take pictures of myself and admire the result afterwards
I can sense it in the way I obsess over what clothes I should wear the next day
I can feel the self obsession in the way
I feel over confident all of a sudden
I don't want this pride
I don't want this arrogance
because there is nothing about me that I should proud of
and I am not better than anyone else to feel arrogant.
I ....really have no right
I have nothing
I am nothing
I want to feel like I am nothing at all times
Help me to be humble, Ya Assalamo! Ya Mutakabiro!
I have wasted too much of my life glorifying my Nafs
This monster of a Nafs needs to be shattered into a million pieces and blown away with the wind.....!!!

My Respite

I was so scared Allah Taa'la
I still am
I was shaking
trembling

I felt powerless
weak
fragile
unprotected
vulnerable

My heart threatened to
shut down any second

My desires threatened to
consume me any moment

I was so scared Allah Taa'la
and I still am ...

The ground threatened to swallow me whole
Those eyes threatened to burn me alive
My own skin, my own flesh and blood
threatened to turn against me

but You saved me
You saved me

saved me from self ruin
saved me from others who wished for my ruin
saved me from everything that waged war against me

You saved me
You saved me

Even now,
when the moment of heightened fear has surpassed
I think back
remember the difficulty at hand
and feel grateful to You for having my back

But the battle lingers on
with no end in sight
With only You by my side
Do I have hope of respite

With You I am certain
no matter what lies ahead
you will ease the hurt and
free me of dread


Verily, with hardship, there is Relief. (Quran 94:6)
"Verily! Only in the Zikr of Allah will your heart find peace." (Quran 13:29)

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Ya Hayyu Ya Qayyum
Ya Hayyu Ya Qayyum

I Apologize yet again hoping You'll forgive me once again

BISMILLAHIRAHMAANIRAHEEM

YA MALIK UL QUDOOS USSALAAM
YA RAHMAAN YA RAHEEM YA ARHAMARRAAHIMEEN
YA ALLAH
YA HAYYU YA QAYYUM

:)

YOU ARE MY CONSTANT COMPANION
YOU ARE LOVE
HENCE LOVE IS MY CONSTANT COMPANION !!!
ALHAMDULILLAH
ALLAH TAA'LA...
I'M SORRY
ABOUT TODAY
THE STARING
AGAIN
IM JUST SORRY :(
FORGIVE ME FOR STARING SHAMELESSLY
FORGIVE ME FOR BEING IGNORANT OF YOU FOR THOSE 5 SECONDS
FORGIVE ME FOR ACTUALLY ENJOYING INDULGING IN DISOBEDIENCE AGAINST YOU!!!! :(:(:(:(
IM REALLY SORRY
I...IT WAS REALLY HARD TO SPEND ALL THAT TIME IN THAT CLASS...BUT ALLAH TAA'LA YOU HELPED ME OUT IMMENSELY ALHAMDULILLAH !!!!
IT WAS JUST THOSE LAST FEW SECONDS THAT I MESSED UP
I CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE WHAT WOULD'VE HAPPENED HAD I DIED THAT EXACT SECOND
HAD my soul been taken away in that moment of disobedience to You ASTAGHFIRULLAH :(
oh dear, save me ALLAH TAA'LA!
FORGIVE ME !!!!!!!
I must have disobeyed you countless times already in this short little lifetime of mine,
despite all the blessings you are constantly bestowing upon me !!!!
how ungrateful and how unbelievably stoopeed i am :(
oh Allah please plase please help me not to repeat this sins!
please help me to more Obedient to YOU!

Ya Rahmaaaan Ya Raheeeeeemmmmm
I need Your Forgivenessssss!!!

I want to ThankYou as well
for this second
this moment
I want to thankYou for making things easy to understand in school today
want to express my gratitude to You for calming me
for building my self esteem
wow
SUBHANALLAH I am amazed at where I am and who I am today because of Your support and Your Love.
ThankYou
a gazillion times over
ThankYou
ThankYou
ThankYou

BISMILLAHIRRAHMAANIRAHEEM
ALHAMDULILLAHI RABBIL AALAMEEN
ARRAHMAANIRAHEEM
MAALIKI YAUMIDDIN
IYYAKA NA'BUDU
WA IYYA KA NASTA'EEN
IHDINASSIRATALMUSTAQEEM
SIRATALLAZEENA
ANAMTA ALAYHIM
GHAIRIL MAGHDOOBI ALAYHIM
WALADDAAALEEEEENNN
AMEEEEENNNN

I Miss You

BISMILLAHIRAHMAANIRAHEEM

YA MALIK UL QUDOOS USSALAAM !!

YA RAHMAAN YA RAHEEM!!
YA ARHAMARRAHIMEEN!!!

MERAY PYARAY ALLAH TAA'LA !!!

THANKYOU
THANKYOU
THANKYOU

It seems like forever since I woke up today
I just wanted to drop by and talk to You :) hehe
Allaaah TAA'LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :D
I am just so happy I can talk to You whenever I want to !!!!
ALHAMDULILLAH
SUBHANALLAH
YOU ARE SO AMAZING ALLAH TAA'LAAAA
YOU ARE SO AWESOME :D:D:D:D:D

I just miss You so much sometimes and I just want to be closer to You all the time

when I come out here in the world...its like I feel far away from You..Your remembrance
and I don't like that
its like the second You are not in my mind and in my heart, I start to panic
Seriously, I think I might even get cardiac arrest someday if I feel too far away from You over a long period of time

Allah Taa'la...are these white flashes normal ? :S
I am getting slightly frightened ! 0_0

Please Protect me :D
I LOVE YOU

Allah Taa'laaaa
I doooooooooo want to appreciate the awesomeness of the QURAN!!!
I WANT TO APPRECIATE YOUR AWESOMENESS!!!!!!!!!
and I want to appreciate the awesomeness of Your creations !!!!!!!!!
and I just want to be on a constant High of Your Remembrance

SubhanAllah
You are so BEAUTIFUL And Bountiful and Lovelyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
I CANNOT LIVE A SINGLE SECOND WITHOUT YOU

ALLAH TAA'LA I CAN STILL SEE THE FLASHES! :O
are they coming from outside? when a car passes by or something?? :O
OH MY ALLAH THERE IT WAS AGAIN ! :O

Alllaaah Taaa'laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
I really want to fly :D hehe
Flying is sooooo much funnnnnn
I remember flying in my dreams a couple times !
and..since my soul feels like its soaring all the time, I just want my body to soar WITH IT ! :) hehe

Allaaah Taa'laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Please bless my pyaray Nanabu !!!!!!!!!
and please bless my pyari Ammi JAAAAN!!!
and please please please please give them the bestest place in Jannaaaah!!!!!!!!!
:")

Allaaah Taa'laaaaaaaaa
I feel like this worldly work separates me form You
I don't want to feel that way naaa
I want to feel Your nearness all the time!!!!
because Life becomes Beautiful when I have You in my heart

and Allah Taa'la
I really want to study with people too
it gets lonely and distracting when I study alone....
I dunno...what do You say?
Its just so much better to study with People as opposed to being a solo studier... You know...
soooooooooooooooo

I LOVE YOU AND THANKYOU AND IM SORRY FOR BEING DISOBEDIENT AND FORGETFUL AND I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!

YA HAYYU YA QAYYUM
YA HAYYU YA QAYYUM
YA RAHMAAN YA RAHEEM
YA ARHAMARAHIMEEN
YA MALIK UL QUDOOS USSALAAM !!

ALLLAAAAAHHH U AKBAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUBHANALLAH

SUBHANALLAH

ya hayyu ya qayyum !!!!!!!!

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

BISMILLAHIRAHMAANIRAHEEEEEMMMM

YA RAHMAAN
YA RAHEEM
YA ARHAMAR RAHIMEEN

YA MALIK UL QUDOOS USASSALAM!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH! ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH ALHAMDULILLAH
FOR TODAY
FOR EVERYDAY
FOR HELPING ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER EVERYDAY
FOR IMPROVING ME EVERYDAY
FOR HELPING ME OVERCOME MY IMPERFECTIONS EVERYDAY
THANKYOUUUUU SOOOOOO MUCH THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU

THOUGH I KNOW THAT I STILL...DISOBEYED YOU
I STILL DISOBEYED YOU
OH ALLAH
IM SORRY
IM SORRY
IM SORRY
IM SORRY
IM SORRY

ALLAH TAA'LA PLEASE HELP ME
PLEASE HELP ME I LOVE THESE PEOPLE SO MUCH ALLAH TAA'LA
I LOVE THESE PEOPLE FOR THEIR SWEETNESS
I LOVE THEM FOR THEIR HONESTY
OH ALLAH I PRAY THAT YOU BLESS THEM SO SO MUCH
I PRAY THAT YOU BLESS THESE BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE WITH THE GIFT OF ISLAM

OH ALLAH TAA'LA
EVERYWHERE I LOOK I SEE JOY, WONDER, HAPPINESS, BEAUTY, LOVE, FAITH TRUST, HOPE POSITIVENESS
SUBHANALLAH!!!!!!!!
IT AMAZES ME TO SEE THESE PEOPLE SOMETIMES
TI AMAZES ME TO SEE THEIR KINDNESS
THEIR MANNERS
THEIR COURTESY
MASHALLAH
MASHALLAH
ALLAH TAA'LA
PLEASE THESE PEOPLE WITH THE GIFT OF ISLAM !
i seriously feel like these people are so worthy of upholding islam. I feel like these people can truly represent Islam
I feel like they will accept Islam wholeheartedly...
Allah Taa'la...for some reason I reallyy TRULY BELIEVE in these people!

Allah Taa'la
THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING
THANKYOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO SPEND TIME HERE
AMONGST THESE PEOPLE OF SUCH HIGH MORAL CHARACTER
I THANK YOU
AND I APOLOGIZE TO YOU FOR BEING DISOBEDIENT
AND I WANT TO LOVE YOU IN MY HEART, THOUGHTS, WORDS AND ACTIONS.

ALLAH TAA'LA, PLEASE HELP ME TO FULFILL MY WORLDLY OBLIGATIONS.
THANKYOU ALLAH TAA'LA
THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING

Allah Hu Akbar
ALHAMDULILLAH

I AM SORRY

BISMILLAHIRAHMAANIRAHEEM

YA ASSALAM! :) :)

SHUKAR ALHAMDULILLAH!!!!
THANKYOU TIMES INFINITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:):):):):)

I AM SORRY TIMES INFINITY AS WELL!!!

YA RAHMAAN! YA RAHEEM! YA ARR HA MARAHIMEEN !

:):):):):):)
PLEASE HELP ME TO ALWAYS LOVE
TO ALWAYS BE AWARE OF YOU
TO ALWAYS KNOW THAT I AM ANSWERABLE TO YOU

PLEASE HELP ME TO KEEP YOU IN MY HEART AT ALL TIMES
PLEASE HELP ME TO LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART ALWAYS

PLEASE HELP ME TO LET YOU AND ONLY YOU LIVE IN THE HOME OF MY HEART!!!!!!

OH MY DEAREST ALLAH SUBHANA U TAA'LA!
I JUST WANT TO FALL HEAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE WITH NONE OTHER THAN YOU!
I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING FOR YOU
I WANT TO SERVE YOU
I WANT TO SEE YOU EVERYWHERE I LOOK
I WANT TO FEEL YOU WHEREEVER I AM
I WANT TO THINK OF YOU, TALK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME !

OH ALLAH
PLEASE
LET ME ALWAYS LOVE YOU
PLEASE
FORGIVE ME
PLEASE ENABLE ME TO BE AMONG THOSE WHOM YOU ARE PLEASED WITH
PLEASE HELP ME TO ALWAYS STRUGGLE IN YOUR PATH.

PLEASE HELP ME
PLEASE HELP ME
PLEASE HELP ME
PLEASE HELP ME
PLEASE HELP ME
PLEASE HELP ME

NOT TO JUDGE ANYONE
NOT TO HAVE ILL FEELINGS TOWARDS ANYONE
NOT TO HAVE PRIDE IN MY HEART
NOT TO LOOK DOWN ON ANYONE
PLEASE HELP ME TO BE HUMBLE
PLEASE HELP ME TO BE A MUSLIMAH WHOM YOU ARE PLEASED WITH
PLEASE HELP ME TO BE AMONG THE WOMEN OF PARADISE

ALLAAAAAHHHHH JEEEEEEE
YA RAHMAAN YA RAHEEEEM
YA ARR HA MARRAHIMEEN

I NEED YOUUU
I NEEED YOUUUUUU
I NEEEEEEEED YOUUUUUUU !!!!!!!!!

PLEASE HELP ME TO LOWER MY GAZE
PLEASE HELP ME TO BEHAVE MYSELF IN ITM TOMORROW
PLEASE HELP ME NOT TO LISTEN TO SHAYTAANS WHISPERS
ALLAAAHHHH
I LOOOOOOVE YOUUUUUUUU
PLEASE ALWAYS BE WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!

ALLAH TAAA'LAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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PLEASE BLESS MY NANABU AND TRANSFER ALL OF MY NAIKI'S TO HIM!
AND PLEASE KEEP HIM HAPPY! AND PLEASE SEND MY LOVE TO HIM !
AND PLEASE PLEASE GIVE HIM THE BESTEST PLACE IN JANNAH!!!!!

:")

PLEASE PLEASE TEL HIM I LOVE HIM
PLEASE PLEASE TELL HIM I RESPECT HIM WITH ALL MY HEART
PLEASE TELL HIM <3


YA RAHMAAAAANNNNNNNNNN
YA RAHEEEEEMMMMMMMMM

THANKYOUUUU
TIMES INFINITY!!!!!!

FORGIVE ME

YAA HAYYU YA QAYYUM
YAA HAYYU YA QAYYUM

Please.

BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRAHEEM

DEAREST ALLAH AZZA WAJAL

.......
I want him to be among the people of piety
I want him to be among the people of paradise
please please please please please please please please
MAKE HIM NAIK AND INSTILL IN HIM NEVER ENDING LOVE FOR YOU AND THE DEEN AND THE BELOVED PROPHET MUHAMMAD SALALAHUALAYHAYWASALM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ALLAH TAA'LA!!! IM BEGGING YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAKE HIM AMONG THE BEST MUSLIMS OF THIS GENERATION!!!
MAKE HIM A RELIGIOUS SUFI, A SCHOLAR OF ISLAM, AND A TRUE MOMIN!!!!
PURIFY HIS HEART ! PURIFY HIS SOUL!!!
HELP HIM YA ALLAH!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel selfish asking you for this
but I just...can't help it.

Bless him!
Bless his family forever!
may they all truly be PAK, PURE ...TAYYAB.

Allah Taa'la.....

please.


ThankYou.


ThankYou for Everything.