You are the only source of PEACE

BISMILLAHIRAHMAANIRAHEEM

DEAREST ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA

YAA HAYYU YA QAYYUM

QUITE TOUGH YESTERDAY HAS BEEN

I DON'T EVEN FEEL GOOD COMPLAINING TO YOU BUT
IT SEEMS YOU'RE THE ONLY I SHOULD COMPLAIN TO

ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BLESS MY NANABU
AND THANKYOU YA RAHMAAN, YA RAHEEM, FOR TAKING him AWAY COMFORTABLY FROM THIS WORLD.

YA ARHAMARAHIMEEN !!!! YA RABBILALAMEEN!!!
Things feel tougher all of a sudden
Studying...maintaining friendships
smiling...
I turn to YOU for strength
for perseverance
for guidance
for Love
for PEACE
FOR REST
FOR HAPPINESS

I TURN TO YOU
I TURN TO YOU
I TURN TO YOU
I TURN TO YOU
I TURN TO YOU
I TURN TO YOU


YA RAHMAAN YA RAHEEM
YA ARHAHAMARRAHIMEEN !!!
I NEED YOU SO SO SO SOOOOO MUCH
PLEASE BABAJAN KO KHIAR KHAIRIYAT SAY POHNCHADAIN
PLEASE MATH KE SAMAJH ATA FARMA DAIN
PLEASE HELP ME TO UTILIZE MY TIME HERE ON THIS EARTH IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY
PLEASE MERAY SAR KE DARD KUM KAR DAIN
PLEASE BLESS MY FAMILY
BLESS ALLOW THEM TO FIND YOU
TO FIND REST IN YOU
TO LOVE YOUM BE OBEDIENT TO YOU

PLEASE HELP EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY TO LIVE LIFE IN THE BEST POSSIBLE MANNER
HELP US ALL TO LEAD LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT US TO LEAD LIFE
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE


WE ALL NEED YOU SO MUCH!
HELP US TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE INESCAPABLE TRUTH OF OUR COMPLETE DEPENDENCE UPON YOU !!!!
HELP US TO TURN TO YOU WHILE WE STILL HAVE TIME BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE !
HELP US TO REALIZE SOONER AND NOT LATER, THAT WE ARE GOING TO RETURN TO YOU
AND WITH THAT REALIZATION, HELP US TO ALSO CHANGE THAT WHICH IS WITHIN OURSELVES
HELP US
HELP US
HELP US
HELP US
HELP US
HELP US

HELP US TO TRUST YOU
HELP US TO LIVE THIS LIFE WITH A BIG SMILE ON OUR FACE
HELP US TO FEEL YOUR LOVE, YOUR MERCY
HELP US TO SEE YOUR PERFECTION EVERYWHERE WE GO

HELP US
HELP US
HELP US
HELP US
HELP US

WE ARE WEAK
WE ARE YOUR SLAVES
WE ARE NOTHING BUT ANTS
EVEN SMALLER THAN THAT
WE ARE NOTHING BUT NOTHING

DEAREST ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA
YA ARHAMARAHIMEEN

AFTER I HEARD THAT NANABU PASSED AWAY,
JUST THE NEWS OF HIS PASSING...IT HAD A GREAT IMPACT ON ME
THE WORLD FEELS DIFFERENT
MY VISION SEEMS DIFFERENT
EVERYTHING HAS STARTED TO SEEM SO TRIVIAL NOW
AND THE ONE THING THAT FEELS LIKE IT MATTERS IS
YOUR REMEMBRANCE

YA RAHMAAN YA RAHEEM
HOW COULD I THANKYOU ENOUGH ?????
HOW????
HOW CAN I THANKYOU IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAY ??????????

TELL ME MY ALLAH PLEASE!!!!
I WANT TO THANKYOU!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKYOU
THANKYOU
THANKYOU
THANKYOU

HOW DO I THANK YOU IN MY DEEDS?
HOW DO I CONSTANTLY THANKYOU IN MY HEART?

WHAT FORM OF GRATITUDE DO YOU LOVE THE MOST MY BELOVED ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA??????
PLEASE TELL ME
SO I MAY START BEING GRATEFUL TO YOU IN A WAY WHICH PLEASES YOU MOST !!!!!!!!!!



SAYYIDINA KAREEMUN SALALAHU ALAYHAY WASALAM

:) I Can Never ThankYou ENOUGH!

SHUKARALHAMDULILLAH TIMES INFINITY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANKYOUUUU
THANKYOUUUU
THANKYOUUUU

YA RAHMAAN YA RAHEEM!
YA GHAFOOR UR RAHEEM!

SUBHANALLAH!
SUBHANALLAH!
SUBHANALLAH!

You are NEAR !

BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRRAHEEM

YA RAHMAAN! YA RAHEEM!
AAP KA SHUKAR HAI !
AAP KA SHUKAR HAI !
AAP KA SHUKAR HAI !
AAP KA SHUKAR HAI !

You are Near!
You are Near!
You are Near!
You are Near!

SUBHANALLAH

You are Near!
You are Near!
You are Near!

You are with me WHENEVER I THINK OF YOU!
SUBHANALLAH!

With Your Blessing

Dearest Allah Subhanau Taa'la

:) :D
Well You seeeeeeeeeeeeeee
of course YOU SEE
YOU SEE EVERYTHING :D

ahem
I mean, so, as You can already seee
much much more clearly than meee
I am infact extremely passionate about
writing poetryyyyyyy :D

and and
I want this to beeee
my life's work
and I wish to exclusivelyyyyy
deidicate everyyy single poem
to You!! Allah the AL-MIGHTY!!!!! :D :D :D

Allah Taa'la
I don't want to waste the gift the you Have
so Graciouslyyy
bestowed upon meeeee !!

Hence, as a molecular token of my gratitude to YOU
I wish to utilize this gift of writing poetry
in order to express what I have felt of Your mercy
in hopes of showing people how Loving BEAUTIFUL, KIND AND MERCIFUL YOU ARE IN REALITY

Allah Taa'la
I know I can NEVER EVER EVER EVER ACCOMPLISH ANYTHINGGGGGGGGGG if I am not aided by You!!
So Allah Taa'la,
please please
help me to
1. Always keep my intention pure and sincere to serving YOU
2. ALWAYS KNOW THAT NONE OF THIS IS POSSIBLE WITHOUT YOU. ; I cannot accomplish anything if it is not pre-ordained by You
3. Think, say, and do only That which Pleases YOU! Never ever let me be among the transgressors or the innovators ! ASTAGHFIRULLAH :(

Ya Rahmaan! Ya Raheeem!!!
please bestow Your Rahmat !


Ya Rahmaan! Ya Raheem!
SHUKARALHAMDULILAH
SHUKARALHAMDULILLAH
SHUKARALHAMDULILLAH

ALHAMDULILLAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

YAA HAYYU YAA QAYYUMU BIRAHMATIKA ASTAGHITHU ASLIH LI SHA'NI KULAHU WALA TA KILNI EELAA NAFSI TARFATA'IN

Words of the Wise

The spiritual master Ibn Atallah Al-Iskandari spoke the truth in his
First Aphorism in his Book Of Aphorisms when he said,"

A sign of reliance on your deeds is the lack of hope when you slip into an error."

If we become blinded from Allah and overly reliant on our deeds and willpower alone for success, it leaves for a very painful fall.


Dearest Allah Taa'laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Its funny how I LITERALLY cannot Live WITHOUT writing to YOU!
I feeel so much better once I write to You

Allah Taa'la
I'm sorry I missed maghrib prayer :( so bad I be *sigh*
Allah Taa'la
I am sooooo thankful for the online Zaynab Acad Class!!!! SubhanAllah!!! please please Bless everyone attending the class and the presenter!
I am just humbled about how its like You immediately saw how I wanted to learn more about Your names and wa'laa! BOOM! I got an email about a class on Asma ul Husna! SUBHANALLAH!!! :")
ALHAMDULILLAHI RABBILALAMEEN!

Allah Taa'la . I am also extreeemely grateful for a friend like Sameera!
Alhamdulillah!
and I don't know what babajan's concerns are..well actually I kinda know what they are...but I just think its so lame what he said
is it wrong to say that ?
Allah Taa'la
I personally really want her to live with me but I don't know how to handle this situation properly now.
I feel like I might end up taking things into my own hands again...not keeping babajan fully informed about what I want to do...hence resulting in inevitable misunderstandings 0_0 and maybe even embarrassment

Allah Taa'la...all I know is that I sincerely wanted to HELP sameerah by offering to let her stay at our house with us.
and ...thats all. So Please just do what ever is best .
Please let this happen in the best possible way too. PLEASE

Allah Taa'la
please please bless sameerah and her family ! I pray that we can do sooo much work for you together!! :D inshALLAAAHH!!

Allah Taa'laaaaaaaaaaaaa
Its like, just talking to you five times a day isn't enough for me HEHE :3

You Live and You Learn

......OKAY.
I SHOULD be mature about this
kuch bigra nai hai mera
.....
ohhh deaaaaar
what would I do without the MSA :(
I feel so humiliated

this choora...i fantasize about this choora
and THIS is what i get?

ThankYou
for the humiliation
it taught me a lesson

STAY AWAY FROM CHOORAY GORAS AT ALL COSTS
ESPECIALLY THAT one >_____<
Allah Taa'la....
help naaaaa

Allah Taa'laaaaaaa
I know I shouldn't be a big fat cry baby
my reward lies with You
and EVERYONE is going to be dealt with JUSTLY on the day of DELIVERANCE

SOOO
if anyone says something bad about me
if anyone insults me
is rude to me
orrrr
even, lets say shoots me in the head unjustly
i don't have to worry about getting revenge
i don't HAVE to do anything!
BECAUSE !
i leave me affairs to YOU ALLAH TAA'LA

The Blessed Prophet Muhammad Salalahu AlayhayWasalam went through SO MANY HARDSHIPS FOR THE MUSLIM UMMAH !!
and yet NOTHING demoralized him!
NOTHING could stand in between him and his mission to Spread Islam!!!!!!!!
because, he KNEW ! that ALLAH TAA'LA IS ALWAYS WITH HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUBHANALLAH SUBHANALLAH SUBHANALLAH

ALLAH Taa'laaaa
I need an imaan booster
I NEEEEEEEEEEED TO BE STRONG
I NEEEEEEEEED STRENGTH FROM YOU

I feel so sad all of a sudden
but I don't want to
why am I feeling sad ?
cause non believer mocked me ?

seriously Aroob...you need to do better than that

ohhh Dear
achi baat hai tumhara stupid sa khawab toota hai
BUT don't fill yourself with resentment
NEVER DO THAT !
ANGER IS VENEMOUS, HARAM!
ab bus losers ke tarhaan angry ya sad honay ke koi zaroorat nai hai is stupid see baat par
just the fact that this is actually affecting you is STUPID and LOSERISH!

so PUHLEASE
have some DIGNITY AND SELF RESPECT.
and IGNORE
NEGLECT
LEAVE IT TO ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA


To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself. ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

*Fight against your ego with the 4 swords of training:

►Eat little
►Sleep little
►Speak little,
►Be patient when people harm you...


*If everyone is pleased with you but Allaah is not,
what have you gained?

And if Allaah is pleased with you but no one else is,
what have you lost?*

YOU ARE ALL I NEED

Deaaaarest Allah Taa'laaaaaaaa
I need Your loooooooove!!!!!!!
Allah Taa'la....okay let me put it This way:
I NEED TO be able to FEEEL YOUR LOVE!!
I don't want my soul to be deprived of that FEELING of Your LOVE!
Allah Taa'laaaaaaaaaaaa

I NEEEEEEEEEED YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUUUUUUUUUCHHHHHH

I COULD NEVER EVER EVER EVER FUNCTION WITHOUT YOU
SERIOUSLY IM JUST SOOOO FRAGILE AND NEEDY AND DEPENDENT COMPLETELY NON-SELF-SUFFICIENT.

ALLAH TAA'LA...AM I ON THE RIGHT TRACK?
PLEASE JUST GIVE ME A SIGN THAT ITS OKAY WHERE I AM AND I DON'T HAVE TO BACK UP.

ALLAAAAH TAA'LAAAAAAAAAA
THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING.
PLEASE HELP ME LOWER MY GAZE
PLEASE HELP ME STAY FROM WORDLY ATTACHMENTS
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME NOT TO GET ATTACHED
PLEEEEEAAAAAAAASSSSSSEEEE

ALLAHU ALLAHU ALLAHU ALLAHU ALLAHU ALLAHU