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Bismillah Arahmaan Araheeeeeem
Deaaaaaarest Allah Taa'laaa

I know You know that I realllyyy tried hard not to 'fall' today
annnd quite honestly, it was effective!
but i know that You know that I coulda done a lot better
and there were times when I was slipping and tripping >_<
I'm sorry about those trips :[
I'm reallllyyy trying hard to just keep walking....unhindered
Allah Taa'la
THANKYOU somuch for always being here for me
for ALWAYS being the Light that I neeedd
:) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH Allah Taa'laaaaa :')

ThankYou for helping K
I am sooooooo glad that she is more stable now ALHAMDULILAH !
You are the Most Merciful and the MOST Gracious!

Allah Taa'laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
THANKYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!!!!!!

You are here
listening to me as I speak
Here to hold me
in all the times I am weak

You are here
ready to help me fly
always standing by
to help me touch the sky

and it is right Here with YOU
THAT I feel a Love so true
It is Right here
in this moment
that my soul becomes anew


:") ALLAH TAA'LAA I LOVE YOU !!!

This Ego has to Go

I'm trying to Love You
the way You should be loved
but my ego gets in the way
it keeps leading me astray

when I try to make Da'wah
in hopes of pleasing Your Majesty
my ego whispers to me, stories
of fame, greatness and glory.

when I control my desires
in hopes of pleasing Your Majesty
my ego tells me
I have a right to be happy
I have a right to have fun
until the whispers have their victory
and my desires consume me...

when I try to understand
and study the grand
words of Your Majesty!
my ego gets in the way
tells me I'm smart enough
to find my way
In ignorance, I am asleep


so I pray to You
and beg of You
Your Highness, Your Majesty
to bestow Your Divine favor
upon this soul, so weak
or this ego will most definitely be
the unfortunate death of me.

Stay With me, Forever

Now I'll tell You WHY I LOVE YOU

WELL,
SIMPLY BECAUSE I LOVE YOU
I CAN'T EXPLAIN
I JUST LOVE.YOU.
PERIOD
YOU JUST SO LOVELY, YOU KNOW ?

SO SO SO SO LOOOOOOOOVELYYYYYYY
AND YOU SO PERFECT
AND BEAUTIFUUUULLLLLLLL
AND AND AND AND AND
I JUST DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SAY HOW LOVELY YOU ARE!
YOU ARE JUST INFINITELY LOVELY! :D
PERFECTLY LOVELY AND LOVING!

I Thank You so so so so so so soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much
FOR EVERY SECOND
EVERY MOMENT
EVERY BREATH
EVERY TIME I BLINK MY EYES

ALLAH TAA'LA
I COULD SERIOUSLY WRITE LOVE LETTERS TO YOU ALL DAY teeheeeeeeeeeeeeee

OH MY LOVELIEST ALLAAAAAAAAAH
YOU ARE SERIOUSLY THE ONLY ONE WHOM I CAN LOVE WITH ALL MY HEART, KNOWING THAT I'LL BE LOVED IN RETURN ! SUBHANALLAH!
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO I CAN TRUST MY HEART WITH
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO WILL NEVER EVER EVER HURT ME
EVER!!!!!!!!!!
SUBHANALLAH! SUBHANALLAH!
MEI BUS FANA HO JANA CHAHTI HOON AAP KAY PYAR MEIN
YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO I CAN LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY, KNOWING THAT I WILL RECEIVE LOVE IN RETURN WHICH IS FAR GREATER THAN THAT WHICH IS IN MY HEART!
SUBHANALLAH!!!!
ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA
I REALLY ..IM JUST...SPEECHLESS

ALLAH TAA'LA
I WANT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT YOU
I WANT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT YOUR WORDS
I WANT TO LISTEN TO YOU
I WANT TO READ YOUR WORDS
I WANT MY EVERY ACTION TO BE AN EXPRESSION OF MY LOVE FOR YOU
OH ALLAH OH ALLAH OH ALLAH OH ALLAH!!!!
SUBHANALLAH
YOU ARE PERFECT
YOU ARE PERFECT
YOU ARE PERFECT
SUBHNALLAH!

ALLAH TAA'LA
AAP NAY MUJHE YEH MOMENT DIYA HAI
ALLAH TAA'LA
YOUUUU HAVE GIVEN THIS SECOND TO ME
AND THIS ONE
AND THE NEXT
AND THE ONE AFTER THAT

WHY WOULD I POSSIBLY BE DUMB ENOUGH NOT TO SPEND IT IN YOUR REMEMBRANCE?!
WHY WOULD I WASTE A GIFT THAT YOU, YOURSELF, THE LORDS OF THE WORLDS, HAVE BLESSED ME WITH????
HOW COULD I EVER EVEN THINK OF WASTING THIS GIFT?
THE GIFT OF TIME
AM I INSANE?
OH ALLAH, I WANT TO UNWRAP THE GIFT OF LIFE, WITH LOVE AND CARE
I WANT TO UNWRAP IT PEELING AWAY ONE PIECE OF TAPE AT A TIME
ONCE I HAVE IT UNWRAPPED, I WANT TO FOLD THE WRAPPING PAPER WITH CARE, SET IT ASIDE AND STARE IN WONDER AT THE GIFT UNDERNEATH THE WRAPPING.

I don't even know what I'm saying
seriously I have no idea what it synonymous to the gift underneath the wrapping
I don't even know what metaphor is hidden in the wrapping itself...

I wonder though..I wonder what it could possibly mean...

Allaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
stay with me please <3

Does this really NEED a Title? :P

ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAH ALLAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH


OH MY ALLLAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU

Mind your MIND

these scattered thoughts
these inconsistent, fleeting thoughts

They keep flashing through my mind

they keep flashing in the blackness of my mind.

the mind..is a lonely place.
the mind, is a confused, mixed up place
the mind is so isolated when it is left alone ...it is so nonexistent when it isn't spoken to

why do I say that?
when no one talks to You, and when you dont talk to anyone,
its almost as if, your thoughts don't exist
your mind is apparently, 'empty'

if nothing goes out..it seems as if there is nothing in there either

but that isn't the case now is it?
the mind isn't empty
how could it ever BE EMPTY???
it is overflowing !
it talkssss and talks and talks and talks and talks and talks till the only thing that can shut it up is death or sleep (temporary death) !

the mind
is alive and yet it is dead
it is alive with thoughts
and yet dead when those thoughts keep repeating them self in a never ending circle.

so what are we to do with this mind?
this mind, that we were born with
this mind which can be both a blessing and a curse at the same time?
what are we to do with this mind?

how are we supposed to have a hold on our thoughts?
how are we meant to use it ?
what are meant to use it for ?

thoughtssssss
the miiiiiind

what is the definition of a healthy mind?
what is the definition of a corrupt mind?
at what point do we 'loose' our mind?
what are the limitations of our mind?

What Is A Beautiful mind?
What is an Extraordinary mind?


For all these questions
all the answers I wish I could find

I will always keep searching,
always keep investigating
always keep using my own mind
to define, describe and interpret the mind

kinda like a computer trying to figure out how its own CPU works
kinda like a computer questioning its own internal workings
I don't think its that hard to understand
because everything I am trying to discover is within myself
it is not beyond me
it is Within me
the understanding of myself
lies Within me

The miiiiiind
what is it meant to find?
what is it meant to know ?
what is it meant to learn ?
in this life...what is my mind supposed to know in order to have spent a successful life?

the mind the mind the miiiiind
a description to its needs I am trying to fiiiiiiind
I am trying to see so I don't die bliiiinnnddd

Keep Holding On

How lovely is life
How sad it is
How interesting it is
How constantly changing it is

Life?
what is it?
it is a process of change
the only thing that is constant in this process is change itself

what else is constant?
Beliefs
values
morals
Love
Allah

In life, only the Intangible things are constant.
So how do we make sure they stay constant if we can't obtain them physically ?
how do we hold on to these intangibles that make life beautiful?
if we can't hold them in a treasure box, where do we keep them ?

we keep them in our heart, soul...
we keep love, our beliefs, Allah in our heart, in our soul
we BECOME these intangible assets
so once you BECOME something
could you ever loose it ? could you ever loose yourself?
the choice,
is Yours .
Hold on to Your Intangible Assests
Hold on to Your self
Hold on to Life

REMIND ME TO SAY THANKYOU & I LOVE YOU

BISMILLAH ARRAHMAN ARRAHEEEEM!!!!
DEAREST MOST LOOOVING ALLAH SUBHANAU TAA'LA!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKYOU
THANKYOU
THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU THANKYOU
THANKYOU

I Literally just don't know what else to say about the amazing day I've had today !!!
ALHAMDULILLAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
Where do I even start from?
Where do I even BEGIN to express my gratitude to YOU??????????????????????!!!!!!!!
You make me a better person everyday Allah Taa'la ! :')
You help me to improve my character every second!
every moment is an opportunity from You to LEARN, UNDERSTAND AND LIVE LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT ME TO !
ALHAMDULLILLAH TIMES INFINITY!
I'm just SO SPEECHLESS about the amazing people I have met today!
so utterly SPEECHLESS about what I have learned from them!
so SPEECHLESS about how connected I've felt with these people!
SO COMPLETELY SPEECHLESS about the unbreakable bond I have felt I have with these people!!!!!
SUBHANALLAH! SUBHANALLAH! SUBHANALLAH!
ALLLLAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHU AKBAR!!!!!!!!!

I just want to tell You that I Love YOU SO MUCH for LOVING ME!!!!!!!!
FOR CARING ABOUT ME SOOOO MUCH!!!!
FOR BLESSING ME WITH THESE GOLDEN OPPORTUNITIES!
I THANKYOU! FOR EVERY SECOND OF ALL THE DAYS IN MY LIFE!
I THANKYOU MY ALLAH!!!!!
I AM YOUR SLAVE!
OH ALLAH!!!!!!!!!
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL !
YOU ARE PERFECT!
YOU KNOW ME BEST !
YOU ALWAYS CARE FOR ME!
MORE THAN I WILL EVER DESERVE!
SUBHANALLAH! YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO MAKE ME HAPPY
YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHEN AND HOW TO HELP ME
SHOW ME YOU'RE HERE, SHOW ME YOU CARE
ALHAMDULILAH ALHAMDULILLAH
THANKYOU ALLAH TAA'LA

FOR OPENING MY EYES
FOR OPENING MY HEART
FOR OPENING MY MIND
UNLOCKING MY SOUL TO MY SURROUNDINGS


NOW ALLAH TAA'LA
I STILL ASK OF YOU TO HELP ME GUARD MY HEART AND MY MIND
I REALLY NEED YOU TO HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS.
I CAN NEVER DO THIS ON MY OWN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REALLY RREALLLLY NEED YOUR HELP TO REPEL EVIL
TO ABSTAIN FROM EVERYTHING YOU ARE DISPLEASED WITH!
ALLAAAAHHHHHHH
I PRAY FOR SOLID FIRMNESS IN FAITH!
I PRAY THAT YOU BLESS EVERYONE I HAD THE HONOR OF MEETING TODAY!
BLESS MISS FRASER AND MISS HEATHER AND SAMEERA AND SHAKIRA AND JUST EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU

PLEASE JUST HOLD MY HAND
PLEASE DON'T LET ME FORGET THAT YOU ARE HERE
ALWAYS !
PLEASE....DON'T LET ME FORGET!