I'm not Moving

I can't move on. I can't block my feelings. They're here to stay, and I think its about time I learn to accept that.
Not having you isn't a problem now. It's just a part of my life. I'm used to you ignoring me. Used to us not talking to each other for months at a stretch.
Its alright though. 'cause no matter what happens...time will stand still for me.

Lost Without You ...Not

Wrote my first song last night.
*Name of song = title of blog*

ummmmmmmm
im reallly happy with how it turned out, also I'd love to record it asap, however, my left middle finger hurts..probably from over-practicing. Need to give it a little rest. Plus I reallyyy want to put in PROPER emotion into the song so I want to FEEL like Im ready to sing the words before I record it. Theres no rush, cause I want to make it as PERFECT as possible.

This means a lot to me cause its the first song I've ever composed. I just want to thank Allah again, and again, and again and for all the days of my life.

I want to do something in my life that Counts. Thats my dream.

You know, I just want to surrender my life to Allah Taa'la. Let Him take my life in whatever direction He chooses. Just like Pattie Mallette said: 'I want to give God a chance to live my life FOR ME'
This is what I pray for.
Because I know that no one knows whats best for me except HIM.

Lead me Allah Ta'la. I want to follow You.

:')

THANK YOU ALLAH TA'AALA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another Day of nothing but GRATITUDE

It's quite interesting how I've been thanking Allah a lot in my recent posts :) Of course, that shouldn't come as a surprise as there is not a single moment when we SHOULDN'T be thanking the Almighty for His Infinite blessings upon us!

However, I am PARTICULARLY grateful today for two reasons:
*I passed my Driving Test with 100% Accuracy
& Allah gave me the Gift of a Daily Deviation; one that I will never forget my entire life.

It's almost as if, ever since I came to the U.S., good things have been happening to me-A LOT more than usual.
& now, I can't help but think that God planned this all for me. To help me grow, reach the heights of my potential, build my character and strengthen the soul He blessed me with.
This is all I can conclude from the present situation of my life.
Also, everyday, there's this nagging feeling within the depths of my being. A feeling that seems to be telling me that I was created for something Important.
I don't exactly know how to explain it but, this feeling begs me to polish the abilities Allah has given to me, it Urges me to perform my absolute best because it BELIEVES that I was created to USE my abilities for good, spreading enlightenment and above all, Love.


I Feel so weird typing all of this right now because, I don't even feel like half of what I'm saying is coming from my own mind. I just feel like I have a responsibility. I HAVE to give back somehow and live up to everything that Allah gave to me.


Every breath is magic
and this Life is a miracle.

I believe that I am here for much greater things than I had EVER even DREAMED for myself.


Allah, I just need your support, and I will serve you for as long as I shall live, and ever more.
Your servant for eternity,
aroob

Unbroken

THANKYOU Allah for blessing me with the gift of a wise, insightful, intelligent Mother !

In my previous post I was confused, lost, disillusioned, disoriented, blinded by the fog in my conscience. I couldn't tell right from wrong.

Its amazing how quick you responded to my plea for help, Allah!
You IMMEDIATELY listened and actually guided me through my Mother's words.

Of course, even though I still don't claim to have a black & white perspective of right & wrong, at least I'm in a place where my head isn't spinning in circles.

I still need you to help me make sense of this whole concept of Music. I still need to know how far I can go.
Allah, I never EVER want to displease you, or go astray. So PLEASE, stay with me, guide me, teach me the way of the righteous and pious.

I need you in my Life Allah, with every breath I take...

Your Servant,
Aroob.

TORN

I'm having a 'Junaid-Jamshed' moment right now.
Meaning, I'm torn by this internal conflict of beliefs.
Whats Right and Whats Wrong?

I don't know what to do...

Ya Allah mujhe kuch samajh nai aa rahi ...please guide me! :(
I dont know who to listen to, what to believe, how to act,...everything's just a big blur.

Help Me Please. !

Your servant
Aroob Mallhi.

The Hunger Games Hunger on...

I just finished reading the Hunger Games trilogy.
I can Never stop thinking about it; the story, the characters, their lives, the deaths, the war, the cruelties...no...just as the character's minds were permanently imprinted with the horrible images of their memory, I too can never reverse the time and empty my brain of all I have read.

I'm baffled at how effectively the author has managed to leave a lasting impression on her readers.
I love the coupling of Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark. I love their characters as individuals. They are heroic and courageous and will sacrifice their lives for each other whenever the circumstance arises.

I simply Cannot muster up enough praise for this book series in the limited confines of this blog post.
I am simply blown away, by the girl on fire and the boy with the bread.

*May the Odds be Ever in Your Favour*